Life, My Universe and The People I know

Long time, no typing. Ah well, no big deal.

Life has been moving steadily, up and down and in every direction I could probably never guess. I've done a lot of soul searching, and found myself in a very strange state. I feel like I'm 16 years old, in my basement again, after a terrible fight with my family, wondering who I am. I've learned in 6 years that who and what you are is a hard thing to deny. I love to write but I found that writing for myself to be what I was really all about. So I've stopped writing for other people and chose to be selfish. I've heard many times that one can't please every in the crowd and I continually forget that. I try to be more than what I am and fall over. I think that's mostly akin to the fact that I have a hero complex and must help everyone I find with something and never focus on myself until it builds up. It took me a whole month to finally understand that there are just somethings I can never be and will never be and I must respect that. Others will pass me and instead of trying to push myself to beat them, I must accept that instead of pushing myself to the brink like I do, I must let them pass and continue on my own beat.

I learned a great lesson because of these events in the last 6 months. I've learned that not everything is as it is, nothing gold can stay and of course that at the end of the day the only person you are judged by is yourself and that it's your own expectations that you should stick to and no one else.

Oh, and cartoons do teach life lessons if you actually look deeper than the skin.